Wednesday, January 21, 2015

First Love

I am part of this group on goodreads which conducts a weekly contest of poetry and short story (with different theme every week). I started participating in the hope that I will write something every week and it seems to work. At least my blog seems a bit more active now :P
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I am, near you,
Near you, yet I can't,
Yet I can't realize,
Can't realize.

I have, as you see,
As you see, a duality,
See a duality, that crystallized,
Just crystallized.

I just look down, then look sideways,
All I want do, is to see your face.
I stiffen up, when you come by,
When you leave, I breathe a sigh.

I am, near you,
Near you, yet I can't,
Yet I can't realize,
Can't realize.

Now here I am, I asked you out,
To confess to you, how I feel.

Just see me thinking here about these useless things,
Want to bury myself in the shame it brings,
Look at the words, they are flying with wings,
And its just been a minute and so it stings.

I am, near you,
Near you, yet I can't,
Yet I can't speak out,
Can't speak out.

And time goes, so slow by,
So slow, just let me die,
Just let me die, let me die.

Saturday, January 17, 2015

Carne Vale


Drums are beating,
Huzzah! Huzzah!
Trumpets are blowing,
Huzzah! Huzzah!

White as gay,
And black as bold,
Here they are,
From young and old,
Rising up, from their tombs, one and all,
Huzzah! Huzzah!
Trumpets are blowing,
Huzzah! Huzzah!

Gloomy faces with cheery eyes,
Happy faces with teary eyes,
Wrinkles showing experiences,
And paradoxes make them wise.
The old look up,
Huzzah! Huzzah!
Trumpets are blowing,
Huzzah! Huzzah!

Drooping shoulders from mounting debts,
Weary eyes with filled regrets,
Disappointed by their stolen future,
Give a look of yearn towards their bets.
The young look back,
Huzzah! Huzzah!
Drums are beating,
Huzzah! Huzzah!

The milky way then opens her door,
A shining path then touches the floor,
Eyes are sparkling, mouth agape,
The cheers arise as expectations soar.
Looking ahead,
Huzzah! Huzzah!
Drums are beating,
Huzzah! Huzzah!
Trumpets are blowing,
Huzzah! Huzzah!

Cheering and dancing, they make for the door,
Stop a while later, they look to the floor,
A sea of tombs made of flesh and stone,
A raven flies just then, "Nevermore, nevermore!"
All then shout,
Huzzah! Huzzah!
"Carne Vale!"
Huzzah! Huzzah!
Drums beat again,
Huzzah! Huzzah!
Trumpets blow again,
Huzzah! Huzzah!

May Day

GENRE: Science Fiction
WORD COUNT: ~1700
RATING: Safe!

"Mr. Kumar, are you ready?"
Mr. Kumar adjusts his tie, gently tugs on the collar of his suit and straightens his neck, as he faces the reporter and the cameraman.
"Yes, Miss Vinita, I am ready."
Miss Vinita motions for her crew to start recording.

"Hello and Welcome to The Hum. Today, we are with Mr. Rajesh Kumar who claims that he has some information regarding the events that lead to the siege of May Day." She turns from the camera to Mr. Kumar, "Welcome Mr. Rajesh Kumar"
"Thanks for having me"
"Can you tell us a little bit about yourself and how you came across the information that you plan to share with us today?"
Mr. Kumar takes a deep breath, leans back a little on his chair. "Now, I am a grandfather with two beautiful grandchildren, but my connection with May Day began 50 years ago on 14th February, 2018."
"What happened on that day?"
"I was offered an internship" Mr. Kumar gives a brief smile and continues, "You see, back then, I was a 19 year old student, studying literature in a local college in Mumbai. Like any young student, I had a desire to go for an internship, preferably abroad. I knew my chances were not great, given that I did not have great academic record, but I still applied to several universities and even corporate internships for which I was eligible. As I had surmised, I did not get a call back from any of the places I had applied, except one, Brecht Inc. They took several telephone interviews over a period of two months. I was feeling a little bit lucky, a little bit happy and worked really hard to look good in those interviews. After all that, an offer of 6 month internship was finally made by them."

"You mean the same Brecht Inc. that the government had claimed were responsible for the siege?"
Mr. Kumar looked down, he placed his hands on his lap and gently rubbed them, and then he stopped. "I will tell you what Brecht Inc. was and then people can decide whether they were responsible or not."
"I am sorry, it is a bit cold in here. We can try to quickly get this interview over with."
"No, it is fine. I understand the circumstances quite well, you don't have to feel sorry about it"
"So, what was Brecht Inc.?"
"Brecht Inc. consisted of handful of people and a few researchers. While it was officially known to have funded by a few angel investors, however, in reality, it was a crowd funded company where the names of the common people funding the company were kept anonymous."
"So, you are saying that Brecht Inc. was actually a company founded and run by a portion of the general public?"
"Yes, a fairly large portion in fact."
"What were they trying to achieve which required anonymity?"
"Their goal was the completion of their project Resolution. This project began on January 1st, 2019 which is also when I joined them for the internship. At the beginning I did not know what the project was intended to do. My task as an intern were two-fold: 1] convert the definitions contained in the dictionaries into a certain format that was supposed to be read by a computer and 2] input basic facts about the world which are not readily available on the internet into a computer system."
"That is very strange. Did you not feel anything odd about all of it?"
Mr. Kumar let out a small laugh and said, "I was a 20 year old, on an internship, in a foreign land. What do you think?"
Vinita smiled a little, and pushed further "So, what it is that they were trying to build?"
Mr. Kumar looked down, scratched the back of his head and then after a while, he tilted his head towards the camera and said, "they were building an Intelligent system".
"You mean, they were building robots"
Mr. Kumar vehemently shook his head and stressed, "No, no, not at all. They were building an intelligent system that would parse arguments made in favour and against several laws in the congress. The system was designed to find flaws in each argument, check facts being quoted by the politicians and discover links between the law and any corporate project that might be affected by them." Mr. Kumar took a short breath to slow himself down, and then continued, "You see, people were concerned that the laws being passed in the Congress were being influenced by corporations. While this may not hurt people in the short term, but it can have long term consequences. Many news analysis teams had cropped up over the internet at the time who demonstrated several discrepancies in the argument made by politicians in Congress. However, humans can identify only very few patterns and can see only so much far ahead, while machines; machines can be made to identify much bigger and deeper patterns and figure out consequences that may not be readily visible. To do this, lots of machines and smart applications that can store and analyze large amounts of data were required. Maintaining and building such a system required lots of engineers and researchers and all of this culminated into Brecht Inc."
"Why the anonymity, I don't see anything illegal here?"
As she finished this question, the ground shook and a small rumbling sound echoed through the cold underground tunnel. Vinita and her crew looked at each other and then at Mr. Kumar. Mr. Kumar adjusted himself on his seat and said, "The people were afraid that they may feel a pushback from the government if they came to know of the existence of this system. The idea was that Brecht Inc. would parade itself as just another news analysis agency and existence of the intelligent system will be kept secret. In the worst case, a few people who are the face of the company may experience problems, but at least most general public can be safe-guarded from unnecessary problems."
"You told us that you were not aware of the intention of the project, when did you get to know this information?"
"2 months into my internship. As it happened, I was not the only intern working there. Also, several million people were contributing from remote places. After just two months of data, the system was performing way better than the researchers had anticipated and it was already producing amazing results. We held a small party wherein a drunk engineer clued me in on this project albeit unintentionally", Mr. Kumar smiled as if recalling that scene from his memory.
"This was near March of 2019. How did this seemingly harmless project end up in the siege?"
Mr. Kumar became grim. He rested his elbow on the arm of the chair and rubbed his forehead. Then, he shifted his hands down to rub his eyes. He looked up, those red eyes now visible, "A week after government agents came and shut us down. As it happened, our system managed to breach and locate some confidential government files and link them to certain foreign policies being debated in the Congress. It would not have looked good for the politicians, if that information had gone out. The agents had identified everyone connected with the project and almost all of us were given a choice - either shut up and never talk about this or be charged with treason for hacking confidential data. All of us took the way out. The agents held back and took the engineers and researchers who worked on this project along with them."
"What did they do?"
"I don't know, but just two months afterwards the siege happened. Later, when government announced that Brecht Inc. was responsible for the siege and incarcerated those engineers and researchers involved with Brecht Inc., I figured that something went wrong in those two months and government is making Brecht Inc. take the fall for it. It is pitiful how the politicians could not see past their protecting their own image and allowed anarchy to follow." Mr. Kumar leaned back on his chair and looked up at the ceiling of the tunnel which were showing signs of age. There was a tremor again and another rumbling sound echoed and this time it was far more louder and far more clearer.
Vinita, realizing that it is almost time to wrap up, asked a final question, "Why? Why after all these years? Why not earlier?"
Mr. Kumar had a pained look on his face, mixed with embarassment as he answered, "I left the country in June, as I was supposed to. While the country was still in the confusion and shock of the siege, the infrastructure was still functional at the time. When I came back to India, it was different life and siege was not my problem anymore. At least that is what I thought back then." Mr. Kumar eyes were brimming with tears, took out a photo from his pocket and showed it in front of the camera, "This is my daughter. I lost her during one of the raid attacks." As he said this, he looked at the picture, his eyes requesting her to come back. He wiped his tears and continued, "Now, I have two grandchildren left and I want to protect them in any way I can."

At that moment, lot of sharp sounds were heard. The sound of metal clanging on brick walls was easily discernible. The shooting crew was quick on its feet, they wrapped up their equipment quickly. The crew members began running and Vinita tried helping Mr. Kumar. He refused her help and asked her to escape. As they were escaping, the shooting crew saw Mr. Kumar being caught and chained by several sentinel robots. As she was escaping, Vinita turned the camera to her, "We are confident that stories such as these will continue to give direction to our struggle and one day we will find a resolution to this tragedy. Remember, The Hum is always present everywhere. Now, we end this live global transmission."