Thursday, February 18, 2016

A Message to Parents

A girl is not your burden to bear.
Her life is not for you to spare.

She doesn't come second to your son,
and deserves just as much rice when its done.

A girl's education is not an option.
Remember, her future is never up for auction.

She can run in the sun, go out to play.
She is not to be dolled up, put up for display.

She is not some goods to be sold,
or a slave who does as she is told.

She is your child, just like the others,
she is the loving sister to her brothers.

Love her so that she feels safe at your backs,
Tell her there is nothing in this world that she lacks.

Then watch her spreading wings like a butterfly,
A self propelling flower, she will be, in the world's eye.

Saturday, February 13, 2016

The Man from C.A.B.I.N

Genre: Thriller
Rating: Safe
Word Count: ~2600

August 8 2012, Convocation Hall, IIT Bombay, Mumbai, India.

It was a sunny day and on any other day, Sundar would have appreciated the weather but not today and certainly not inside the closed hall. His senses were not functioning and his mind was completely blank. The silent beating of the heart and the emptiness of the mind was offset by the slow murmurs in the hall where Sundar stood on one side, just near the dias, with few other PhD students of IIT Bombay who were graduating this year.

The hall was a rectangular shaped auditorium with stadium seating arrangement. Sundar looked around, watching the students seated in the hall. All the male students were dressed in white kurta and pajama and female students were dressed in white salwar kameez or white sari. All the students were wearing variously coloured dupattas (uttariyas). The colors indicated the degree with which the student was graduating. Sundar was wearing a peach coloured uttariya. If someone were to look at the hall from the top, it would probably look like a white canvas peppered with colors of the rainbow.

The session began with the institute song -

Antar mama viksit kar
    Antaratar hey

Nirmal kar, ujjawal kar
    Sundar kar hey

Jagrat kar, Udyat kar
    Nirbhay kar hey

Mangal kar, niralas kar
    Nihsanshay kar hey

Yukt kar hey sabke sang mein
    Mukt kar hey bandh

Sanchar kar sakal karm mein
    Shaant tumhara chhand

Charan-kamal se mera man
    Nispandit kar hey,
    Nandit kar
    Nandit kar
    Nandit kar hey

This song, which is translated from Bengali, was originally written by the great Indian poet and polymath Rabindranath Tagore. The song asks the divine one to grant the virtues of enlightenment, diligence and fearlessness. These three form the essence of a strong academic spirit. As the song was being sung by a student in the most melodious voice, Sundar closed his eyes and the five years he spent at the institute flashed in his mind. In the last five years, he had faced his own weaknesses. He had to push through when the chips were down and continue on despite repeated failures. After several struggles he had published a few of his works and finally submitted his thesis titled, "Models for Precise Aggregates and their Applications to Trend Predictions". The words of the song entered through his ears, into his soul and resonated with his experiences. For a brief moment, he was overwhelmed and a drop of tear appeared in his eye. But he quickly wiped it away and kept his emotions in check. He had always dreamed of this day, to be a scientist and the dream was about to come true.

June 23 2015, Aryabhatta Labs, Kroogle Research, Hyderabad, India.

The computer displayed a Fedora desktop with a gnome terminal. Sundar typed in a few commands into the terminal to execute a program. What followed was an array of numbers being spit out at intermittent intervals onto the display. The program finally ended and an image popped up displaying a graph. The graph showed 1% improvement in advertisement prediction. Sundar had just created a new model which would increase Kroogle's advertisement revenue by at least a million dollars. Sundar leaned back on his chair, and took a look around. His colleagues were all sitting in their cubicles with their heads buried in their computer. When Sundar graduated three years ago, he expected himself to do something exciting in his life, not just make several million dollars for an MNC. He has very little to complain though, because the job paid well and with this new model, he can certainly expect an increase in salary and a bonus. However, as a child, he had always envisioned scientists in their white lab coats saving the world and over the years, he very well knew, how far was reality from his dreams and yet these three years have played a part in burying them entirely. He sighed a little and went back to looking at his computer. He opened the Thunderbird email client and began checking his email.

He saw three emails from his father and he could see that there were image attachments with all these three emails. He surmised what these images were. He had strictly told his parents that he is not interested in getting married for at least a few more years and despite that, his father would keep sending new photos every few weeks or so. He simply skipped over those emails. Then, followed a series of emails from the technical discussion group from within the company. He noticed a C++ question asked in this discussion that he could probably answer. He immediately wrote up an answer to that question and send it as a reply. Then there were a bunch of emails congratulating one of his colleagues who recently announced his wedding engagement. Then there was another thread discussing what gift to give the colleague on his wedding. Sundar had earlier suggested gifting a cactus plant with a passport size photo of every member of the team stuck on the thorns. The team simply replied back saying, "we know now what to gift you on your wedding".

The next email was titled, "Your thesis on Aggregate Models and Trend Prediction is interesting!" Sundar was a little startled and pleasantly surprised. He opened the email:

Hi Sundar,

I recently came across your thesis on Models for Precise Aggregates and their Applications to Trend Predictions. I must say I found it quite fascinating. The fact that one can look at a set of joint distributions and then characterize prediction tasks on them with some simple assumption is pretty cool.

The email then went on in detail about what the person found fascinating in the paper and the technical aspects and assumptions that they found to be somewhat restrictive. It finally ended with,

We are looking to apply your models in the work that we are doing. Unfortunately, due to several constraints, I cannot exactly disclose the organization I am associated with, nor can I disclose the nature of our work. But we are very keen on hiring you. If you are curious, then please drop an email soon, so we can schedule your interview this weekend itself.

Sundar checked the email of the sender, it was simply 'manandsuperman@kroogle.co.in'. It was a plain email id, although, Sundar did like the reference to George Bernard Shaw. He dismissed the email as a hoax, but hesitated to delete the email. He opened another application called texmaker and began writing a latex report on his new model and attached the graph which supported his claims. He then attached the report in an email titled 'I just made a million bucks' and send it to his manager. He checked the time, it was ten past twelve. He looked around and his colleagues were all getting up to leave for lunch. So, he screenlocked his computer and went along with them.

The lunch discussions at his company were usually were active. Anything from sports, films and politics would get discussed over the lunch table. Sundar would actively participate in them whenever he could. However, today he was distracted. The spoon he held in his hand grabbed a clump of rice from his plate and took it to his mouth. The hand worked like a machine and mouth chewed reactively, but his mind was somewhere else. Precisely speaking, it was still on the email he had read just before sending his report and coming for lunch. Although, he was almost sure that the email was a hoax, but the details with which it was written suggested otherwise. He could not help it, his curiosity was piqued.

"Sundar, are you ok, you have been quiet for a while now", his colleague asked him while poking him with his finger. Sundar quickly turned around and replied, "Oh, I am fine, just thinking about a minor issue, but its nothing". Soon after, he joined in their discussion and put that email issue at the back of his head. As soon as he returned from lunch, his manager came up to him and shook his hand, "Awesome work dude!" to which Sundar smiled and replied, "Thanks".

"How long before we can launch this model into production?", his manager asked with a querulous look.

"There are some technical challenges to overcome but if I sit with the engineers and work alongside them, we should be able to push this into production in a week!"

"Fantastic, are you free now? If the engineers are free as well, we can set up a meeting and go over your model and come up with list of things to do."

"Yeah sure, I am free."

"Ok, I will talk to the engineers, set up a meeting and send you an invite."

"Sounds good."

The manager walked away and Sundar returned to his desk. His manager worked fast and the meeting was soon set up. Sundar spent the rest of his day in the meeting, going over the details of his model with the engineers and addressing the technical challenges involved in implementing it. When the meeting ended, it was already close to the time, he leaves office. However, just before he was about to leave, he opened his email client, clicked on the email sent by manandsuperman and sent in a reply,

I am interested.


Soon enough, a reply came back from manandsuperman,

1. Attached are your air tickets to Vizag on the weekend.
2. Our driver will pick you up at the airport and take you to the meeting place.


Sundar just stared blankly at the screen for a minute wondering what exactly happened in those few minutes.

June 27 2015, Vizag Airport, Vizag, India.

It was 8 in the morning and Vizag had a pleasantly cold climate. As Sundar stepped out of the airport, he saw a man holding a placard with his name on it. He moved towards that man and indicated to him that he is the one whose name is written on the placard. The man smiled and guided him to a car nearby and they drove out of the airport.

Vizag was being developed as a smart city by the Government. So, there were several ongoing constructions that were visible as the car made its way through the city. Soon, the scenery got boring and Sundar fell asleep. When he woke up, he yawned and stretched his hands. With eyes half open, he noticed that he was still in the car. Then, he looked outside for a bit, only to be surprised by trees that surrounded the car. His rubbed his eyes and fully opened them to realize that they were in a forest. He got shocked and scared and asked the driver, where they were. The driver coolly replied, "Sir, we are in Kambalakonda Wildlife Sanctuary". Sundar got so scared that he immediately tried opening the doors, but they wouldn't open. The driver looking at his passenger through the rear view mirror told him to take it easy as they will soon reach the destination. Sundar curled up in a corner and sat motionless.

After half hour, they made their way to a cabin near the Kambalakonda lake. The driver stopped the car, got out, and opened the back seat door to let Sundar out. The driver pointed out the cabin with his finger. Sundar, who was still in shock and fear, thought about running away. But he was too deep into a wildlife sanctuary to pull this stunt safely. He decided to rather move towards the cabin and figure out what is going on. He slowly moved towards the cabin and as he moved towards it, he noticed that it is shoddy, and looked as if it was not cleaned for a long time. Soon, he began to wonder if this is some elaborate prank, but if it was, it certainly was an expensive one. For a brief moment, Sundar thought that this could be some serial killer, but he actively pushed such thoughts away from his mind and soon found himself in front of the cabin door. Sundar took a gulp and opened it.

The inside of the cabin was empty, except a table two chairs and a man sitting in one of them. The man was reading a binder in front of him. As soon as Sundar entered the cabin, the man looked up from his binder and stood up to greet Sundar with a wide smile.

"Mr. Sundar, welcome, welcome. How was the trip? I hope there was no trouble reaching here.", the man said extending his hand to shake it.

Sundar just shook his hand and looked around. His eyes wandered towards the window that showed the still water of Kambalakonda lake and his mind contemplated thoughts of how to escape from this cabin through the lake.

"I imagine this must be a shock for you. I am sorry that we have to be so unconventional, but that's the nature of our organization. I am sure you have several questions, but before you ask any of them, I want you to sign this NDA."

Sundar took the NDA form, read through it. It was an ordinary NDA form which every company gives, so he took out a pen from his pocket and signed the NDA. As he gave back the form, he asked, "Where am I?"

The man looked puzzled, "I was sure your first question would be, who are you? But well, to answer your question, you are at Kambalakonda Wildlife Sanctuary."

"No, I mean where am I? What am I doing here? What are you doing here?" Sundar started reeling out his question, partly in frustration, partly in impatience and partly in fear.

"Well, well, before I answer all those. What did you think about the email I sent you and my criticisms about some of the assumptions in your model."

"You are manandsuperman?"

The man nodded a yes.

Sundar sighed and replied, "The class conditional distributions being same is a simple assumption. It holds in several applications that we were thinking of at the time when we created that model. We could not find any reasonable applications where our assumptions did not hold.",

"Well, we have applications where your assumptions don't hold and we have data in which your models can show interesting improvements, if you can make it work. Will you be interested in working on such data?"

"I am here, aren't I?" Sundar spat out in frustration. He plumped on the chair in front of him, without being asked to and held his forehead.

The man chuckled a bit, "Of course, Mr. Sundar!" The man held out another form in front of him and told him, "This is an employment offer. If you are still interested in what we do, you can accept this employment offer right now or you can reject it. You can accept this offer and reject it later as well. Of course, you will be still under our NDA, so you can't tell anything about us to anyone. The consequences will be dire if you do so. However, the work is exciting and very important, I can assure you that. I would accept this offer if I were you, Mr. Sundar."

Sundar lifted his head to face the man, grabbed the offer letter and signed it and gave it back.

The man checked the signature and turned towards Sundar, "We are an organization that work directly under RAW. Mr. Sundar, welcome to Crime, Assault, and Breach Investigation Network a.k.a C.A.B.I.N".

cue stylish music
tadat tadat tadat tadat taadaa
tadat tadat tadat tadat taadaa
tadat tadat tadat tadat taadaa
tat tat tat ta daa

Friday, January 22, 2016

Mosquito

A mosquito wallows in the filth it was born,
cursing its fate, it struggles to get out,
its effort cheapened by the mosquito far away,
born in an uglier filth.

Achieving freedom, it went to nourish itself,
the first prick, the taste of success, the fruit
of the hard labour, only to be swatted away
by the palms from heaven.

As it falls to its death, the mosquito far away,
waves, cheers, acknowledging a life well lived,
but the fallen one, only wonders what it means,
to live.

Monday, January 18, 2016

Cassiopeia

Falling autumn leaves,
brushes her cheeks,
swirls gently around,
lands at her feets.
Gets crushed.

The withered remains,
carried by the wind,
tell the tale,
of the one sinned.
Gets hushed.

The autumn rains,
weep and bury,
deep into the soil,
calming the fury.
Gets rushed.

The rotting soul,
nurtures and feeds,
the young of tomorrow,
suckles and breeds.
Is gushed.

And there begins,
the story of autumn,
Anew.

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Childhood Memories

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U V W EX WHY ZED!!!

The Child Reaper

Genre : Horror, Fantasy, Thriller
Word Count : ~1800
Rating : PG

January 3, 2016: Denver, Colorado

If there ever was a stereotype about how a 15 year old boy's room looks like, this was definitely not it. As Elle tiptoed into her older brother's room, she cannot help but be impressed by how cleaner it was than her own. Books neatly stacked on the shelf and those he was currently reading are on the desk. They were closed and the page he is currently on have a bookmark placed in them. Elle was happy to see that her brother was using the bookmarks that she had made for him a while back. His used clothes are in the laundry basket and the fresh ones are neatly folded in the drawers. There is not a speck of dust or rather anything lying around in the floor, which made the tiptoeing really easy.

Things were not always this way with her brother. Just a few months back, he was hanging out with the wrong crowd, skipping school, failing exams. He was indifferent to everyone in the house. Would never listen to her parents and hardly acknowledged her existence in the house. And yet, just one day, he drastically changed. He cleaned himself up and stopped hanging around with his old "friends". His grades got way better and in these last few months, Elle found herself growing closer to her brother than anyone else in the world.

As Elle tiptoed into her brother's room where he was sleeping in his bed, she suddenly jumped on him. David woke up startled, looking around trying to figure out what happened. As he looked around the room with a confused and shocked face, he found his sister puffing her chest and then shouting with a loud voice,

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!"

David let out a groan and then checked the clock, it was 6.30 AM. He usually wakes up at 7, so he lost half an hour of his sleep. He looked at his sister and simply replied,

"Thank you, thank you, now please leave me, so that I can have some sleep."

"Come on, its your birthday! Look what I made for you!" she said, as she stuck out her hand and showed him a card.

David delicately took the card in his hand. In the front it said, "Happy Birthday to the Best Brother in the World!" with generous use of glitter all over it. It made him a little happy, but he wouldn't show it. "Too much glitter don't you think?"

"Oh, psshhh, stop complaining and look inside!", she was looking at him all excited.

He opened the card and it had a drawing inside. Elle was good at drawing, but she was never confident about it. A month back, David had coerced her into entering into a competition after looking at her drawings. She managed to win a consolation prize to which David's reaction was, "I thought you were good for a second prize at least, those judges wouldn't know art if it hit them in their faces". From then on, she had been even more hard-working and dedicated towards improving her drawing skills.

David looked intently at the drawing. It had a small timid girl and in front of her was a knight in his armour. Facing the girl and knight were several nasty ghosts and monsters. The knight was extending his hand as if he was motioning them to stop. The entire drawing had a background that depicted hell with a sea of fire and corpses floating on them and several mountains spitting lava.

"This is really good. Elle, you should really enter this in the next competition."

"It is good, but no, I won't enter this one. Do you understand this drawing?", Elle was a little fidgety as she asked this question.

"The knight is saving the girl from hell", David replied staring at the drawing again to see if there is anything he missed.

"The girl is me, the ghosts and monsters are the bullies who were bullying me and the knight is you"

David looked at the picture again and he noticed the faces for the first time. Indeed, the girl resembled Elle. The ghosts and monsters had faces too. And the knights face did look like his own.

"Thank you", Elle squeaked, "I wanted to say this before but thank ..."

David flicked her forehead and she whimpered in pain. "You don't need to thank me. It's what families do."

Elle hugged him and gave him a quick peck in the cheek, "Come down, we have a surprise for you!" and she left the room hopping like a bunny.

After she left, David closed the card and checked the clock again. It was close to 7 already, so he placed the card on his desk, went to bathroom to wash himself and get ready. Then, he came down to have breakfast, his entire family stood there,

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY", they chorused.

His mother and his sister both had awoken early that day to bake him a cake. As David came down the steps, his mother approached him, clasped her hands around his head and pulled it down so that she can kiss his forehead.

"Mom, I am old now, you didn't have to do all this", he said with a smile on his face, which was getting harder to hide.

They split the cake, between them and happily ate them. David praised his mother and his sister for the delicious cake and looked at his father with a querulous look, "no gifts from you?" His father threw the car keys at him and told him, "You are old now, you don't need gifts. You need to learn responsibilities, so I am going to teach you how to drive." As he finished, his father grinned at him. David could not hide his astonishment and went ahead and hugged his father.

His father then turned on the TV. There was on-going interview with a serial killer expert on the morning show. They were discussing the latest serial killer who has hit the headlines - the "Child Reaper".
Interviewer: Child Reaper has killed 7 children of various ages across the country so far. Do you think we will be able to catch him at all?
Expert: The child reaper is a very elusive killer. The time between his kills are quite far apart. He is also killing at different locations. Even though so far his attacks have been on children, they vary in their ages from 7 to 14. 14 year old being the last known victim. So far, we haven't seen a discernible pattern to his killing, except for the fact that he leaves a note for the parents to tell them where he has buried their kid. It looks like a difficult case, but someday he is bound to make a mistake and when he does, we will catch him.
Interviewer: Speaking of the note, according to the latest information release from the police, there is some mystery around that, isn't it?
Expert: Yes. All the families of the victims tell the police that they received the note the day their child disappeared and yet when the bodies were dug out from their burial place, the time of death was several months prior to receipt of the note.
Interviewer: How does one explain that?
Expert: We don't have an explanation for it as of yet.


"Must be god's angels", David's mother blurted out while she picked the plates from the table. David, who was lost in thoughts during the interview, suddenly stood up and began helping out his mother to clean up. Elle followed her brother to help clean up as well.

"What do you mean god's angels?", David's father asked.

"Angels must be with their family so that they don't have to deal with their son's death. That is why, these families have been finding the note much later, so that they get to spend some time with their kids before they get the news. That must be the explanation.", David's mother said with an enlightened face and the conviction of a true believer.

"You should be on this show," replied David's father half jokingly.

Elle and David got up, waved their parents goodbye and went to school. It was a normal uneventful day at school for both of them. When school ended, Elle decided to walk home with her brother. They were passing by an empty park on the way to their house, when an unimaginable pain coursed through David's hand. It was moulding itself and changing its shape. David screamed out in pain. Elle ran up to him to see, worried by what she was seeing happening to his hand. David turned around to look at Elle. However, what Elle saw was not David's face but a face she did not recognize. She got scared and fainted right then. The changes that were happening to David's body stopped after a while. David looked around to ensure no one was watching, then picked up Elle in his two hands and went home quickly before anyone spotted them.

When Elle came back to her senses, she found herself tied to chair and her mouth was gagged. She looked around and recognized that she was left in the shed of their house. Somebody opened the door to the shed and came in. It was her parents. They looked scared and were relieved to find their daughter safe and sound.

"Where is Dave?", Elle asked worriedly. Her parents went quiet. Her mother began to cry uncontrollably as she continued to hug Elle. Her father lifted his spectacles and rubbed his nose. It was then that Elle had noticed a note in her father's hand.

January 16, 2016: Salt Lake City, Utah

David was sitting inside an abandoned factory lot with another kid his age and they were smoking cigarettes. This David looked nothing like that David from Denver Colorado. So, none of the kids recognized him from the picture of the dead kid that made the TV news as the latest victim of the Child Reaper.

"So David, how do you find our terrible city?", Renny asked.

"It's not bad, I have been in worse", David replied non-chalantly.

"Man, I would love to hear those stories. This city has no ambition. Look at my father, he is a fucking pinko. He helps out everyone and tries to 'share' with the community, even if it comes at the expense of his own family. And my mother does charity work in the church. But nobody fucking helps when we need them. You know what I realized, these goodie two shoes won't make anything of themselves in this world. I never regretted turning towards a life of crime. I got 300$ just by pawning a stolen PS4 and it was only too easy." Renny brought his tirade to a halt as he waved 300$ in front of David. "Sorry, I went off on my own there."

David leaned in, "No, I am quite interested in hearing this. Do tell me more about your family."

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Oenone

Hear me, hear me, Oh one born of fire,
You who suckled on bear's bare breast,
Ordered to die by your father's ire,
Clinged to life, an indomitable pest.

A fair judge you call yourself, hah!
You who wronged me, and all for a whore,
The golden crown, you gave Ares, bah!
Was it not just a page of a coward's lore?

Yes, coward you are, your battles unfair,
Poor Achilles, forever known for his heel;
That you shot, catching him unaware,
Robbing him of title, the warrior of steel.

Now you are injured, your suffering is mirthful,
Did you come crawling, calling me more beautiful?
Than that whore who has had men plentiful?
So that I may heal you, an existence sorrowful?

No, you send that whore to beg for your life,
She has the nerve to call herself your wife,
The pain of your love never really gets old,
But revenge is a dish best served cold.